Friday, May 29, 2009

The Nursery


I have been looking forward to Friday mornings for the past few weeks because Kelly (at Kelly's Korner) has been hosting a "Show Us Where You Live" blog event every Friday. I have had so much fun looking through other homes and was so close to joining in last week but just didn't get to it...things like playing catch and trying my best to pitch to my son are definitely more important these days! But, when it got time for today's featured rooms, I just couldn't pass it up! So...along with the pictures that are necessary to be a part of the blog fun today, I've got a little story that I've wanted to share and finally have the perfect opportunity.


First, a little history on our home...we live in an old home that was renovated and added on to about 8 years ago (we have been here for almost 4 years). The floor plan is less than ideal but when we saw this house, we were in love with it and could see our family staying here forever. The original part of the house is pretty traditional to what was built 80 something years ago...a main hallway with rooms off of it. All of the rooms, with the exception of the kitchen and bathrooms, can be just about whatever room you would like them to be. We also have a basement with two huge rooms but one is Wyatt's playroom and the other has been completely taken over by the Annabelle Baskets (although our plan is to eventually move those into a room in the guest house/Scott's office...the former owners had a business that they built a guest house for and Scott & Wyatt now call it "man town"...complete with fishing rods, wood paneled walls & a large mouth bass hanging on the wall that was NOT allowed in our main house!) We love the charm and character of it... the white picket fence and huge oak trees providing perfect shade in the summer. So, with that said here's the nursery story...


When we found out that we were expecting again, as I have mentioned before, I prayed for another girl. It would be so easy...the nursery was still all set up, baby girl clothes in the drawers and beautiful smocked dresses hanging in the closet. The room was ready for another girl but I was not. What God knew that I did not was that a little boy was on his way...a little boy that I needed to help me grieve and grow. I have a wonderful heart friend, Ashlee, who has walked this path ahead of me and really helped me not push myself to do anything that I am not completely ready to do. She did mention to me last summer that she has a special box of things that touched her daughter, London. In my mind, I thought this would be perfect if the house caught on fire and I needed to be able to grab some of the most special things of Annabelle's to keep. So, I gradually began to go through her room collecting the things that mean the most to me of hers...things that I can see her wearing, wrapped in or snuggled next to. It took me months. Most people would see Annabelle's room and think that nothing had changed, but to me and Scott it wasn't the same. I found myself going in there less and only looking through her drawers a couple of times in months...mostly because she wasn't there and my heart was little by little allowing my mind to be okay with that. So, when the things that I was gathering for Luke began to overtake the chest of drawers that I had set up in the laundry room, I realized that just as much as I am Annabelle's mommy, I am also Luke's mommy. Blame it on the nesting or hormones or whatever, I knew it was time to change things a bit...to make room in our home for Luke. Originally, our plan was to keep him in our room (although he will be in there for quite some time anyways) and then once he's bigger, he and Wyatt can share a room. The other idea was to move Wyatt into the Annabelle Basket/guest bedroom and put Luke in Wyatt's room. With time and healing, the decision was made for us...the nursery would remain a nursery but the pink would fade into blue.


A few weeks ago, I very slowly began to move things around a bit. As I was taking down the pink sailcloth panels last weekend, I prayed through it and began laughing so loudly when I just knew that I could hear the voice of my daughter reminding me that "Mommy, this is cotton! Don't cry over cotton." and asking me if I have any idea the luxuries she is experiencing in her nursery in Heaven..."No, darling. I don't. But, you are right...these are only earthly treasures." As a Christian, I hold tightly to Matthew 6:19-21..."Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth...But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven. For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." My heart belongs to Him and He is my treasure...amazing what you'll be reminded of when folding cotton! I just know that Annabelle would be so proud to see her nursery being lovingly prepared for her little brother!


I still have quite a bit to do but things are starting to shape up and a beautiful baby boy is making his way more and more into our hearts & home!



The view looking in...I just loved the canopy that we purchased for Annabelle so we decided to keep it for Luke. I am sure it will be coming down before too long...when he figures out how to yank it down!





How perfect! My blog friend, Danielle @ Living Out Loud, sent this to me for Mother's Day!



More goodies from Danielle & Suzie (Lindsay's mommy)!




A peek inside his drawers...



Luke's coming home gown & cap.



A close-up...I just knew this was it when I saw it!



A onesie that I ordered for Luke...


Some things will never change...a few of the bows that aren't packed away (so rotten!)...Wyatt picks out Annabelle's bow to change each week on her angel so keeping this in the nursery was mandatory. Luke has a lot to learn about his high maintenance sissy!

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

God is Good!!!

We just got home from Charleston and are resting up for Wyatt's teeball banquet tonight (well, at least mommy and daddy seem to need the rest)...but, I wanted to quickly update y'all. The echo could not have gone better! The tech, Pam, who has done both of Luke's echos & did all of Annabelle's also, got the "perfect" picture within seconds of beginning. She continued to do even more for my peace of mind and was wonderfully thorough with us. (I truly feel sorry for anyone caring for me this time around...I ask every single thing possible!)
Dr. Graham came in after reading the echo and said that he got "perfect" pictures in the first two that Pam took but that he saw also about 36 more that proved Luke's heart looks great! The fluid/effusion has completely resolved and there is nothing (seriously, isn't God awesome?!?!?) that he is concerned about. I asked about having another echo once Luke arrives and he didn't even feel that that was necessary at this time!
We were also blessed to deliver another 30 Annabelle Baskets to the PCICU and more goodies up to 7C! God is so good!

Monday, May 18, 2009

A Request...

I have been remiss in writing...I apologize. I don't really have a reason or any good excuse. I think that perhaps I've neglected blogging lately to think, sit, rest, clean, nest, prepare, process & even decorate a little boy's nursery some. I'm trying to figure out how adding this new precious life to our family will change the dynamic that I was just starting to become a bit more comfortable with. My "normal" has only seemed normal for a very brief amount of time and it's changing. It's scary and increasingly exciting. I want so badly for joy to be on the other side of this adventure and for our hearts and arms to be full once again. But, I know that just as full as I pray my arms will be, I know that my heart will never be completely full. There is and will always be a very special and sacred place in my heart for Annabelle...and that's exactly the way it should be. Our third child is already changing the landscape of our hearts and starting to claim a place all his own. I am finding that there is even more room in my heart than I ever imagined. He is by both his timing and his name's biblical meaning our "bringer of light" and we are just beginning to catch a glimpse!
We will be headed to Charleston tomorrow evening for an 8am appointment on Wednesday morning to have Luke's follow-up fetal echo done with our favorite pediatric cardiologist (although all of them are wonderful, we all have one who's meant the most to us & we were blessed enough to get him this time). We are praying that his effusion has resolved and that everything looks strong & perfect & that no more advanced tests are necessary...would you please pray with and for us?
"For nothing is impossible with God." Luke 1:37

Monday, May 4, 2009

The Bash was a Smash (Hit)!!!

We had a great turnout Saturday night for the Annabelle Baskets Bash! We raised an impressive amount of funds & collected boo-koos of donations for the baskets to continue blessing little hearts! A HUGE Thank You to everyone who came and supported this amazing ministry!


Whew! This thing makes me dizzy just watching them go around!

Emma K. in the jump house!


Reagan posing for the camera! This little girl is AMAZING! (Born with HLHS & Transplant at 8 months! She just turned 4!!!)


Me, Izzy & Mandy


Emma B. rocking the gator!

Wyatt & JC coming down the huge slide!


Diana (Grandma), James & Kim relaxing while Davin plays! (Their little girl, Isabella, & Annabelle were busy having their own princess party while their big brothers were partying at Monkey Business!)

Evie...Annabelle's 1st friend! They were 2 beds apart in PCICU. I adore this little girl!!!


Lots of goodies for the Annabelle Baskets!

More goodies...


Susan (the precious lady who made the newborn caps several months ago) presented us with 100 more!!! They are so soft & perfect for the babies!

I am completely humbled that the Lord has laid this ministry on our hearts and that it has continued to be so richly blessed by your support. When we began just weeks after losing Annabelle, we had no inkling of just what God was about to do...we just knew it was right and that He had given it to us for some reason. So, we began in our grief and trusted Him. I still don't understand it completely and am at peace with not knowing it all (at least this side of Heaven) but what I do know with complete certainty that there are lives being touched and hearts are being blessed in the midst of what is most likely to be the most terrifying and frightening time in these families' lives. God's love is being spread!!! Thank you for allowing me to serve through you and your generosity!